Malmö.

Today was good!

It’s complicated.

Actually, it’s not. Actually, I am. I am complicated. I’m complicated in all the right ways. My highs are high and my lows are low. My deeps are thought and my thoughts are deep. I’m pretty special. I’m rather unique. But if you let me be my magic self, I am yours, for keeps.

All rights reserved.

I think a lot. So, here’s a thought I thought I’d share with you. Just a thought that brings me comfort: you’re not wrong, you’re just not right.

Everyone can’t be the right one. Ultimately, there’s only one the one. I mean, just because you’re not right, doesn’t mean you’re wrong. Like my dad used to tell me, yet in a completely different context: ”This is not against you, Julia. This is for me”, meaning he didn’t do what he did to be mean to me. He simply did it for his own gain. Basically, I had nothing to do with it and it was all well meant.

At some point, you’ll be more than all right for someone, and when you think about it this way, it doesn’t hurt as much to be basically no one to what feels like everyone. One day, you’ll be just right for someone and it won’t matter that you weren’t all the other times.

Sometimes, people are willing to settle for anyone, anywhere. I believe it’s always better to settle for the one and only, even if that person oftentimes seems to be nowhere. I’m still searching for Mr (b)right. That’s right, he has to be a smart one!

I’m convinced everybody’s ”rights” are left somewhere. We just need to move forward and leave the thought of being wrong behind.

Badassery.

”The reason we struggle with insecurities is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.”

Ideas worth spreading.

Another New Year’s resolution: one TED Talk a day – my hunger for knowledge takeaway to feed my mind. It is healthy to train all body parts – including the brain! I hit the gym a lot, it is time to hit the books just as much. Even though I do not really like to study, I like (love, actually) learning and being up to date. It is a great advantage to truly know things.

Forbes is another decent source of intellect. I already read articles daily. The truth is, I rarely play iPhone games; whenever I am on my phone for other than social purposes, it is usually for educational reasons. How about that?

Geniuses are made, not born. The willingness to learn is a choice. My biggest challange here, is to face the fact that there are lessons only failure can teach me. I need to gain experience from life and thus I must dare to live a little. Basically, I have to add just a tad of wild and crazy to my résumé. Are you with me?

The Land Before Time.

Yesterday I watched Jurassic Park III. Tonight, I am going to watch Jurassic World. When I was a little kid I loved The Land Before Time, starring the cutest Littlefoot! I am, in fact, very fascinated by dinosaurs. I also find white sharks and the space super thrilling! I guess the common denominator has to do with power. Now, shower!

Default mode.

Good evening! During the course of a protracted recovery process, I have obviously not been able to hit the gym. However, I have tried to exercise my mental six-pack with reading. I bought three new books in Stockholm the other week, one of them – Braving the Wilderness, written by Brené Brown. I recently got started with that one after almost finishing another one in Swedish about personality types. Consequently, I cannot tell you much about it just yet. The Swedish one, on the other hand, was sort of interesting but a little too long in relation to its content. In my opinion, the author would have been able to reduce the number of pages. The book is called “Omgiven av Idioter” (translation: “Surrounded by Idiots”) by Thomas Erikson. I believe I am a blue person, although with shades of other colours too. I suppose you will have to read it to understand what I am referring to!

Not only have I made my way through several chapters these days, but also – embracing boredom. I have spent a lot of time doing basically nothing, and that is how I came across this TED Talk below.

“Do you sometimes have your most creative ideas while folding laundry, washing dishes or doing nothing in particular? It’s because when your body goes on autopilot, your brain gets busy forming new neural connections that connect ideas and solve problems. Learn to love being bored as Manoush Zomorodi explains the connection between spacing out and creativity.”

I found this speech fairly intriguing because I certainly know what she is talking about. I came up with my most brilliant ideas whilst brushing my teeth, taking a shower and travelling on a coach in the middle of grey English nowhere. If you do not want to watch this TED Talk, then I urge you to read this article at least. I always thought being bored was, well, boring. Turns out, a little dead time every now and then will not kill you. Worst-case scenario, your brain will simply get some rest. Best-case scenario, it might provide you with a brand new business concept and you will have your future sorted just like that.

2018.

New year, new beginnings and a completely new category that should have been here a long time ago. I am finally introducing to you, and myself – Self-Love. It is so important. My idea is to share motivational quotes and poetry on the subject, and of course, personal thoughts. Sounds good, I hope?

I used to play He-Loves-Me-Not with grams in place of flowers. I still possess parts of that mindset. 2018 I am going to start learning how to love what I see in the mirror. I know that I amount to more than the meals I have missed. No matter the looks, what counts is being someone with a kind heart.

Stop waiting for Monday, January first or anything else. Start now…

Survival of the fittest.

December 31st, you elves, nutcrackers and snowmen! I suppose it is finally time to eat less, drink more and sparkle galore! However, I will not be doing much of that. I am bedridden and sick as per usual over the holidays. It is just my luck to get ill whenever I am off work for a longer period of time. Anyway, I am still capable of writing so here follows some traditional New Year’s resolutions, or whatever we should call it!

Next year I have to…

1. Create an exciting life. I am bored most of my time, mainly because I do not get to use my creativity as desired on a daily basis. My weeks has been utterly monotonous for too long. I must leap at excitement.

2. Continue my inner journey. I have learned A LOT about who I am during the last couple of months and it has been an adventure. It is so rewarding getting to know oneself. I am building up my confidence and self-esteem to the core which is an impeccable virtuous circle. Wow. I read articles and books, watch TED Talks and discuss with family and friends. I cannot wait to explore myself a whole lot more!

3. Stop chasing boys, start chasing men. Ha, just kidding. I am going to stop chasing all of them and start chasing merely my dreams. I realise those could involve a guy but no, if so I will try my best not to run after him because he is the one who should be running after me. I am a catch.

4. Take more risks. One cannot win if one do not even enter the game, right? I still have to overcome my fear of failure. I must defeat my way of thinking: “If I lose the highs at least I am spared the lows”. The real winners will always be the doers. It is all about action(s). Chop-chop!

Here is to new chances, same dreams and fresh starts! Next year, I want fireworks, butterflies, shooting stars and fairytales. May 2018 be magical!

Warm hugs.

Today was magical, Stockholm.