My mind, my mind, my restless business mind…
I’d rather die, than diet. I wouldn’t feel much alive if I weren’t allowed to eat whatever, whenever. However, it’s important to find a balance. In fact, I eat a lot more than my body gives me credit for. I can easily overindulge in all the sweets seven days a week, without any major changes. It’s not magic. It’s called daily exercise. I stand up a lot. I walk a lot. I sweat my ass off at the gym. A. LOT. Even though I take occasional breaks from my workouts, I maintain my metabolism by being active in other ways – not every day – but regularly. Also, one triggers the other. When I’ve eaten lots of junk, I want to work out and I have the energy to do so. And when I do train, I also feel like it’s okay to eat whatever I want although training mostly makes me want to eat a whole lot of whole foods. Besides, it’s really all about calories. I don’t suggest you should count, but if you want to lose weight it’s always good to keep track, just don’t overdo it! After all, it’s all about being healthy, i.e. feeling well. That means you mustn’t play games with your mind, you have to treat yourself with kindness.
I’m a professional at feeling bad about myself when someone (anyone) hits the gym and I don’t. That’s nearly as self-destructive as it gets. It’s so bad and something I need to overcome badly. Note to self: don’t overdo, do overcome. Real health starts from the inside, train your brain and boost yourself with solely nutritional thoughts. I absolutely understand those who want to change their lifestyles and lose weight, I just urge you to do it right. Because honestly, I’m sure that, at some point, anyone who’s on a diet wants to be able to eat sugar again. Diets are temporary, aren’t they? Whenever I want to lose weight I don’t necessarily skip any foods, I just eat a little less unhealthy and push myself a little harder at the gym. No diets required. Diets just play mind games, which I very much mind. I’m fragile. I don’t want anyone else to tell me what to do, nor what not to do. Even less do I want a diet to tell me what and when to eat, and what and when not to eat. It is possible to lose weight without a diet. It has to do with the ratio of calorie burn and calorie intake. Just keep it at balance and there you go!
I’d rather die than diet, but of course I don’t recommend dying instead of dieting! I merely want us to know our reasons, to be familiar with what we’re doing to our bodies and why we’re doing it. Simultaneously, be familiar with what we’re doing to our brains and why we’re doing it. Here’s what I think, make sure your life is always worth living and live it the way that makes you truly happy. Never sacrifice your psyche. If your psyche is non-functional, nothing else works; everything about your body is managed from there. To be able to finish at the right place, you must start from the right place. The journey begins within. From the top, to be precise.
I wasn’t born at IKEA, but I can almost say that I grew up inside those yellow and blue walls. Both of my parents worked there when they met, and during the early years of my childhood. At times, my dad was at the flagship store in Kungens Kurva, Stockholm, and my mum mainly at the office in another store. I used to come along and hang out with her lovely colleagues and I especially remember one who used to buy me ice cream!
I have long been inspired by great entrepreneurs; Ingvar Kamprad and Steve Jobs have always been particularly interesting. At upper secondary school, my last major essay was about these two. I chose to compare two multinational companies in two completely different industries. I looked into terms such as business concept, leadership and product. What fascinates me the most is the fact that these individuals failed many times but still managed to do great deeds. They share a story of hard work, passion and multiple obstacles. I suppose that’s what makes people go down in history. Fail, fail again, fail until you don’t. And of course, have a vision. Ambition.
Mama and papa met Ingvar. I never did although he’s been on my bucket list. He will be missed.
Sweden, and the rest of the world, yesterday we lost one of the greatest minds of our time but let’s carry out the task for him, and for us, by never ever letting creativity die. Kamprad didn’t think outside the box, he thought inside the flat-pack. The last sentence makes me realise even more how brilliant he actually was. Dare to think differently and the game of innovation will be in the bag.
But now I’m saving all my loving for someone who’s loving me.
The other day, I went outside for a walk with mum. After about an hour of strolling in our neighbourhood, she inscrutably said that there was something she had to tell me. I immediately thought she was expecting. Her fifth. She put it exactly like that the other two times.
I was pleased to find out rather quickly – that was not the case. I do love every single one of my siblings but I always felt the current number was enough. I mean, all l I ever asked for was one. I ended up with three plus three! The moral of this subplot: be careful what you wish for!
Consequently, no baby boom but a bang as she dropped another bomb. My beloved mother is moving to Bangkok! The moment she uttered those words, tears welled up in my eyes. I have no idea how to manage without her close by. She is the indispensable life-support system of mine that I am in serious need of in situations like these. Mama just caused a minor life crash and I feel slightly injured at the moment. The main reason I live in Malmö is because of her and her three kids, my sister and my twin brothers. I cannot believe they will be gone in a month, for one and a half year at least. I am going to miss them times ten.
A number of degrees warmer, six hours ahead and a ten hour flight away. Never have I ever cared this much about numbers! Nevertheless, of course I am happy for my family and this great opportunity. I certainly would have done the same.
We have now discussed the matter for a couple of days. Finally, I have realised this can be advantageous for me as well. I will have an excellent excuse to visit Thailand. Besides, I will get the chance to finally see the sun again and get a tan! It has been eleven years…
Actually, it’s not. Actually, I am. I am complicated. I’m complicated in all the right ways. My highs are high and my lows are low. My deeps are thought and my thoughts are deep. I’m pretty special. I’m rather unique. But if you let me be my magic self, I am yours, for keeps.
I think a lot. So, here’s a thought I thought I’d share with you. Just a thought that brings me comfort: you’re not wrong, you’re just not right.
Everyone can’t be the right one. Ultimately, there’s only one the one. I mean, just because you’re not right, doesn’t mean you’re wrong. Like my dad used to tell me, yet in a completely different context: ”This is not against you, Julia. This is for me”, meaning he didn’t do what he did to be mean to me. He simply did it for his own gain. Basically, I had nothing to do with it and it was all well meant.
At some point, you’ll be more than all right for someone, and when you think about it this way, it doesn’t hurt as much to be basically no one to what feels like everyone. One day, you’ll be just right for someone and it won’t matter that you weren’t all the other times.
Sometimes, people are willing to settle for anyone, anywhere. I believe it’s always better to settle for the one and only, even if that person oftentimes seems to be nowhere. I’m still searching for Mr (b)right. That’s right, he has to be a smart one!
I’m convinced everybody’s ”rights” are left somewhere. We just need to move forward and leave the thought of being wrong behind.
”The reason we struggle with insecurities is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.”
Another New Year’s resolution: one TED Talk a day – my hunger for knowledge takeaway to feed my mind. It is healthy to train all body parts – including the brain! I hit the gym a lot, it is time to hit the books just as much. Even though I do not really like to study, I like (love, actually) learning and being up to date. It is a great advantage to truly know things.
I read Forbes articles daily. The truth is, I rarely play iPhone games; whenever I am on my phone for other than social purposes, it is usually for educational reasons. How about that?
Geniuses are made, not born. The willingness to learn is a choice. My biggest challange here, is to face the fact that there are lessons only failure can teach me. I need to gain experience from life and thus I must dare to live a little. Basically, I have to add just a tad of wild and crazy to my résumé. Are you with me?