In love with a city.
In this post I am going to reveal my true feelings about my London, but first I am going to let you know what I am up to right now, and the next few days. At the moment, I am in my flat listening to BBC Radio 1 which I must admit is severely addictive; once I have tuned in, it is nearly impossible to disconnect. Ha. I guess the combination of contemporary music, lovely British hosts and up-to-date news is what makes it hard to leave. Besides, it is the ideal mate when you are alone.
I am a person who knows exactly how to enjoy my own company. I had to learn it, the hard way. Today, I frequently choose being in my flat all by myself because it takes a lot of energy to make appearances. I easily get distressed by the expectations of others. However, those are surely just my own nowadays, yet as a result of others’ back in the days… I feel that I have so much to prove, so much to live up to and so much to be, that I may not have within me. Presumably one of the reasons that I find it easier to spend time with my elders – they are not as superficial. Anyway, I do not mind being solo. It is quite another thing to be/feel lonely – which is not really my case.
This weekend I have a dear friend flying in from Canary Wharf/London! I will see her on Sunday and I cannot wait. The last time I saw her was in September last year. I am sure she will bring a little bit of spring to our country. She is a ray of sunshine!
Ever since 2010 I have been visiting London and my friends there regularly. It has been a retreat, an escape from reality in a way and thus I associate London with sheer bliss. I always feel welcome and my worries are, without exception, left in Sweden; they certainly do not fit in my suitcase as I am travelling light, which is crucial when you are into London shopping!
I have my parents and siblings in southern Sweden. The rest of my relatives live in Stockholm. My friends are all over the world. In London, I left my heart. It was love at first sight. The diverse and friendly people, splendid architecture and a delightful overall atmosphere. Whenever I am not in London, I try to manipulate my senses in order to feel as much London as possible, simply, to feel good. BBC Radio 1 is obviously one of the tricks. Molton Brown Dewy Lily of the Valley and Star Anise Body Lotion is another; a scent that I purchased in London and used there for the first time. Accordingly, I think it smells London. Movies, tea, Thomas Sabo Charms – you name it. I even take every opportunity to speak English. I may have been born and raised in Stockholm but just as you can be born in the wrong body, I was born in the wrong city!