In love with a city.

In this post I am going to reveal my true feelings about my London, but first I am going to let you know what I am up to right now, and the next few days. At the moment, I am in my flat listening to BBC Radio 1 which I must admit is severely addictive; once I have tuned in, it is nearly impossible to disconnect. Ha. I guess the combination of contemporary music, lovely British hosts and up-to-date news is what makes it hard to leave. Besides, it is the ideal mate when you are alone.

I am a person who knows exactly how to enjoy my own company. I had to learn it, the hard way. Today, I frequently choose being in my flat all by myself because it takes a lot of energy to make appearances. I easily get distressed by the expectations of others. However, those are surely just my own nowadays, yet as a result of others’ back in the days… I feel that I have so much to prove, so much to live up to and so much to be, that I may not have within me. Presumably one of the reasons that I find it easier to spend time with my elders – they are not as superficial. Anyway, I do not mind being solo. It is quite another thing to be/feel lonely – which is not really my case.

This weekend I have a dear friend flying in from Canary Wharf/London! I will see her on Sunday and I cannot wait. The last time I saw her was in September last year. I am sure she will bring a little bit of spring to our country. She is a ray of sunshine!

Ever since 2010 I have been visiting London and my friends there regularly. It has been a retreat, an escape from reality in a way and thus I associate London with sheer bliss. I always feel welcome and my worries are, without exception, left in Sweden; they certainly do not fit in my suitcase as I am travelling light, which is crucial when you are into London shopping!

I have my parents and siblings in southern Sweden. The rest of my relatives live in Stockholm. My friends are all over the world. In London, I left my heart. It was love at first sight. The diverse and friendly people, splendid architecture and a delightful overall atmosphere. Whenever I am not in London, I try to manipulate my senses in order to feel as much London as possible, simply, to feel good. BBC Radio 1 is obviously one of the tricks. Molton Brown Dewy Lily of the Valley and Star Anise Body Lotion is another; a scent that I purchased in London and used there for the first time. Accordingly, I think it smells London. Movies, tea, Thomas Sabo Charms – you name it. I even take every opportunity to speak English. I may have been born and raised in Stockholm but just as you can be born in the wrong body, I was born in the wrong city!

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    The other Almond March 14

    I have been called many things in my life. However it is the first time I have been referred to as an ‘elder’. Younger folk put themselves under far too much pressure about how to look, what to wear, what to buy blah blah. Life is too short for you to try and please everyone, you will just create your own personal hell. Your generation is going to have to move on as there are far too many others issues that need solving. You are sensible so you will find your own path. If it makes you happy and it is not too illegal, just do it. Hope to see you soon in London and we can discuss in more detail over drinks.

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